"That’s right," Rand said bitterly. "I’m not to be trusted. Lews Therin Kinslayer killed everyone close to him. Maybe I’ll do the same before I am done."
"Pull yourself together, sheepherder," Lan said harshly. "The whole world rides on your shoulders. Remember you’re a man, and do what needs to be done."
Rand looked up at the Warder, and surprisingly, all of his bitterness seemed to be gone. “I will fight the best I can,” he said. “Because there’s no one else, and it has to be done, and the duty is mine. I’ll fight, but I do not have to like what I’ve become.” He closed his eyes as if going to sleep. “I will fight.”
- The Dragon Reborn, “Nightmares Walking”
Love this exchange between Rand and Lan. Though I don’t know why it worked to help Rand get out of his self-pity - somehow saying “stop it, crybaby - and remember, everything depends on you” doesn’t seem like the best approach to me - I love that it does.
Lan was right, this was not the time to coddle Rand, as much as I would have preferred to do that instead of reproach him. I love Lan’s solid heart and valor. I love Rand’s determination to do what’s right.
Assuming your responsibility when you don’t want it, when you’d rather do ANYTHING else, is so difficult. But that’s what gets you up in the middle of the night to feed your crying baby, to work or school when you’d like to stay home and sleep. It’s what stops you from feeling too bad for yourself, and straightens your shoulders, and makes you pick up your burden and carry it.
I think it’s fine if you complain a little before you do it, so long as you actually do it. “It has to be done, and the duty is mine.”
"I will fight."